My attention gets sucked into things very easily. One of my offices has a giant window that looks over a hill that can somehow make any season seem beautiful. I look out this window a lot. When I used to share the office, it wasn’t uncommon for me to need to interrupt a conversation and … Continue reading If “control = happiness = holiness”, something doesn’t add up
Without going full-out drama queen on this topic, do you ever find yourself asking the question of worth? Like, what is the point...really? I'm having those thoughts/feelings a lot lately. In some cases, it's overly obvious. The point of changing my daughter's diaper is because she smells bad and if I let her sit in … Continue reading But, what’s the point?
I sat in the office of my Ecclesiology professor anxiously as he read ALOUD the answers I had written to the assigned questions. Not really out of the ordinary, since it’s an independent study and all of our meetings take place in his office as he looks over my work. But there is still something … Continue reading What do you do?
I know today is about love. I get that. I also (obviously) don't really hate the Internet...I'm being dramatic. I'm a girl on Valentine's Day, totally to be expected. But, at the very least, I'm not very happy with parts of the Internet at them moment. And, like most of the times when I'm angry … Continue reading I hate the Internet
In one of my two offices for my (paid) jobs, there is a bookshelf that I pace in front of. I'm a telephone pacer, a bored pacer and an "I need to get my steps in without leaving this office" pacer. And while I pace sometimes I look over and every time I am guaranteed … Continue reading Jesus is taunting me…again
I had a Fitbit once upon a time in my other life (you know, pre-home ownership, pre-marriage, pre-baby). My former employer gave them out as a way to increase wellness and challenge the coworkers, which was fun. But all good things must be given back when you change jobs. So, I recently treated myself to … Continue reading Thoughts on my Fitbit (oh, hey 2017!)
That's a lot of what it feels like lately. No thriving here. Day by day, moment by moment, I am getting through. A large portion of it is lack of sleep, for sure. Another part, though, I think is feeling disconnected from who I was and who I thought I would be. The cliched phrase … Continue reading I’m surviving
Today is Vivi's first day at the babysitter's house. *Pause for highly emotional moment* And, besides the constant feeling of wanting to go and pick her up which began at 8am, I've been a bit overwhelmed, and let's face it exhausted. I thought that things were crazy when I was the only one who needed … Continue reading Mommy Mode
I fear I only turn to writing when I'm hurting...or trying to prove myself. I want it to be more than that. I want to write (or paint or say or sing or...) something that matters. Something that makes the world better, even if that betterment is just in encouraging myself. I want to remember … Continue reading Called to renew
Ok, the writing (again) has gone off the deep end...but I want to keep trying! I have been writing daily in my prayer journal, which has been super good for me and even if this venture falls through, I hope to keep up with that one...for one thing my little journal I found at Target … Continue reading I’m not dead and #CheersVoxBox